It’s been three weeks since I have stopped drinking and I have begun to feel a lot better. Waking up at 7am on a Sunday morning, without a hangover, is an amazing feeling. It has been liberating to know that I can go out, not drink, but still be sociable. However, it hasn’t all been easy.
The first night I went out there was so many temptations to drinks. The biggest temptation was that I was at a launch party where there was unlimited free booze, so everyone was quite tipsy early on and I felt a bit uncomfortable. The friends I was with had recently told me that they weren’t drinking at the moment for one reason or another, but their sobriety didn’t last, so I was the sole sober friend. By the end of the party I had enjoyed myself, but I did get a bit frustrated by my decision not to drink.
Since that night I have gone out a few times, but last night was the most difficult. I was out for a friend’s birthday, so most of the attendees were drinking. The few others who weren’t drinking were doing so because they were driving. When asked why I wasn’t drinking I told them that it was my decision no to drink, which they all appreciated but commented on how they could never do that themselves.
I was also a bit upset because of prior conflict with my boyfriend that day, so I wasn’t my bubbly self. There was definitely a moment where I thought that I could just drink, get completely wasted and forget about my troubles, but I reflected on my thought process and realised that this method of escaping my feelings is exactly what I hated about myself when I would drink excessively. I ended up leaving the party early to remove the temptation.
I knew that it would never be easy giving up drinking for such a long period of time, but I’m glad I have made this choice. Although it has only been three weeks, I’m already begin to feel a physical difference, but I am also reflecting on what I was like when I did drink, especially to an excess, and I do not what to return to that once these three months are over.
I may be sad, but a drink won’t help that. All I can do is smile.